my hateful day...

who to believe my blog or me??? i put up a brave front in front of people, people ask me i say i am fine, people ask i got anything to share i say no, people ask i got anything to say i say no. how i reply i really don 't know. Am i hard or am i soft?? when i think of it i don 't really know. is it hard to believe yes... cause i am cheerful and how people believe that i am sad??? what the hell... anyway i have endure it longer than any one.. how i know??? i am making mistake from the start... who to blame??? its me... that turn out this way... i have change everybody s ' lives juz because of my word they make a big change.. till the end everyone suffers who to blame??? its me.. i think the biggest mistake in my life is because of my word... does any one believe??? I DO... I AM THE MAIN ROOT TO ALL MISTAKE THAT HAVE BEEN MADE...THAT IS JUST BECAUSE OF MY WORD.........................................................................................................