MY ATTIDUDE SUX ALOT!!!!!!!

I am so xxxx up this time when i talk got [hua zhong you ci] de patern i am so stupid coz i dun noe y become like tat is it my friends problem ???? or me i am so sorry to people now i think i am rite the whole world is wrong i dun noe y like tat oso is it friends or parents or i wan people to notice me i really do not know myself y i like tat it is so oh my god. i am so sad do i need councelling or people to talk to am i wrong ?????????? or is the whole wrong to not understand me!!!!!!!! why i become so rough am i tat bad or i am stupid or people is like tat. i really dun noe y.